Beautifully Tainted

“‎Love everyone and forgive everyone, including yourself. Forgive your anger. Forgive your guilt. Your shame. Your sadness. Embrace and open up your love, your joy, your truth, and most especially your heart.”

— Kermit (via creatingaquietmind)

(via aliveandsmiling)

Here today, gone tomorrow, Stuck in a world with so much sorrow. Happy on the inside yet dying from within, Toggling the idea “am I ever gonna win?” So much pain, feels like no one understands, Seems like depression is the friend in high demand. Somedays facing the truth is so hard to do, But letting go and moving forward…that’s tough too. I yearn for understanding and a new take on life, Figuring out tomorrow and dealing with the strife. Yet here today, gone tomorrow, I still find myself stuck within this sorrow.

Pointless Venting… Subway

Uggghh… I know that I’m just overly cranky because AF showed up…once again (I have an appointment with a fertility specialist on Wednesday) and my cycles decided that didn’t like my 12 day luteal phase so let’s make is a 10 :o(. Anyhoo, every time I go to subway I ask for a BLT and the lady always asks the following questions:

1) What? I respond with B-L-T

2) Do you want bacon? Ummm…Duh hence the B in BLT

3) What else do you want? Gee, I’m guessing the Lettuce and Tomato!!!

Grrr… you work at a place that has BLT on their menu please learn what that includes!!!

“It’s easier to go down a hill than up it but the view is much better at the top.”

— Arnold Bennett

(Source: quoteland.com)

“That you would cry your eyeballs out b/c AF showed”

— twoweekwait

“That you would be keeping it (pregnancy) a secret from everyone.”

— twoweekwait

“A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials.”

— Chinese Proverb

(Source: quoteland.com)

“Life as you know it will be interrupted for two weeks”

— twoweekwait

(Source: kates-emotions, via )

“All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you’re not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you’re the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no’s become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly.
AND YOU WILL TELL THEM YES.”

— I stumbled across the anon-quote that kinda goes with my previous post about our book cover

“That answering questions (and usually lying) about pregnancy or family plans would hurt so bad”

— Twoweekwait

Taken

It’s been a few years since the night I lost my sanity,

He took my pride, slaughtered my soul and what was left of my dignity.

Yelling no, all he heard was yes, must have thought he had the authority,

Took what was mine, not meant for him, left me with shame and humility

Ready to speak, can’t be heard because he’s got so much credibility.

I want to hurt him, take what’s his, but he’s got some kind of immunity.

Torn in half, shattered to pieces I’ve lost my all of my identity,

Incomplete, so much pain, feel like there’s no security.

Want it all back, where to begin, wondering if I have the ability.

Must find my strength, my courage, must overcome this adversity.

**I reposted my poem in honor of preparation for The Vagina Monologues.**

“That you feel that your body has betrayed you by not delivering a regular cycle, the right amount of the required “hormones”, or doing what it should know how to do”

— twoweekwait

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along… . You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

— Eleanor Roosevelt

“That I would have to listen to people complain about their children as if they were burdens while a child is the one thing in the world I want the most. Also, they sound as if they are trying to talk me out of having kids, like it is the absolute worst thing that could ever happen to me”

— twoweekwait